Barriers and Bridges

A few months ago I went to one of the best gigs of my life in Wembley Stadium. No, it’s not Miley Cyrus, nor was it Steps, it was arguably one of the greatest rock operas of all time. Pink Floyd’s “The Wall”. The album talks about the isolation of the protagonist, Pink which comes from all the traumas he has in his life. These become metaphorical bricks in the wall, in the barrier isolating him from society.It was an incredible experience, musically, technically and emotionally. And it reminded me how so often I take things and build up barriers between myself and society; and more often than not, between myself and God…

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Over to You

After I left college I went to study audio engineering at the School of Sound Recording. I was able to use a world class studio, equipment that had been used by amazing musicians in the past, and learn from top engineers and producers. I’ll always remember the first time I got to sit in on a session in the Neve studio, which was the top level studio that only the very highest calibre students were allowed in. The equipment in there was the kind that was used on albums like Nirvana’s ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’, Metallica’s ‘Black album’, Muse, Led Zeppelin, all the greats. This was top class equipment. I was assisting the college manager on some sessions for project he was working on, getting to record amazing musicians and songs, watching everything he did like a hawk. I felt like the luckiest person on my course, being able to see this. But I never for a moment thought I’d be able to use this kind of equipment…

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Blind Eyes and Muddy Waters

Jesus is pretty amazing. I mean, he does a lot of really cool things. Every year when I go to Soul Survivor, Focus, Momentum, or other such places, I come back with all these amazing and crazy stories of the things that he did. Miracles, healings, salvation, transformation, the list goes on. I’m always astounded by what he does and what he lets me experience and see…

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When not enough is more than enough.

I’ve got a friend who’s mum is amazing at parties. Every time I go to their house for a party, there is always a never ending spread of mouthwatering delicious food on offer. And there is always enough, she will make sure of it. What’s even more amazing is that often we’ve all been told to bring a dish with us, so everyone will turn up with their sausage rolls, breaded chicken, cous cous and breadsticks and somehow she’s divinely arranged it that there’s still a balanced spread of food and just an entire table of chocolate gateaux, (although I personally wouldn’t complain). I’ve never been to a party there and gone hungry, or thought there was something missing from the meal, every time she manages to crack it and orchestrate the best spread possible! It’s amazing!

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He found love in a hopeless place.

I think we all know what it feels like to feel rejected. Most of my life at primary and secondary school I can remember being bullied. I can’t remember when it started, I can’t really remember why it started, but people always found a way to put me down and make me feel de-valued and alone. Why wouldn’t they? I was small, I didn’t fight back, I was an easy target. I know I’m sadly not the only one who has very few good memories of school, and often the things that are said over us, and the labels people put on us, that have a nasty habit of sticking with us for years to come…

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Seeing is believing but believing isn’t seeing

There’s a lot of things in life that I won’t believe until I see it happen, and even if I see it, sometimes that isn’t enough! I’m a bit of a Doctor Who fan, so if you’re not bare with me. A couple of seasons ago we saw the Doctor shot dead in the first episode of the season by a mystery astronaut next to a lake somewhere in America. We then proceeded to see the events leading up to that death with everyone apart from the doctor knowing it was coming (that’s time travel for you, dangerous!!). Anyway, for the whole season, right up until the final moments of the last episode we were told the doctor is dead, the doctor is dead, but something in me didn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe the doctor could be dead. Of course he wasn’t, but the point I am making is that I’m a natural skeptic, I find it really difficult believing things unless I see them or experience them myself, and I think part of that comes down to trust…

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Come As You Are

I’m quite a self conscious person, I always feel like I’m not good enough for the thing I’m doing, the people I’m with, or the environment I’m in. I’m constantly trying to change who I am so that I’ll fit in better, or be accepted by people. Through social media we’re able to portray ourselves as these perfect individuals, post the bits of our lives that we think will help us be accepted more and untag the bits that embarrass us. We’re constantly living an edited, superficial life, trying our best to make sure that people don’t see us for who we truly are, for fear of them rejecting us.

And sometimes, we do it with God…

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